If you lost everything, what would you want back?
Years ago, I was struggling through a season of life personally, while I was seemingly able to continue on successfully as a leader…but was I? I found myself in a very dark place and afraid to go to God for fear of what He would say to me. I knew I had to ultimately have a “come to Jesus” moment as I was at a crossroads of a lifetime! I was in my living room, in the middle of the night and it took all of the courage I had to sit up and tell God, “I need you. I am not doing well” (as if He didn’t know haha).
I sat waiting in the dark, silent night. My husband and three small children were in their beds asleep. A scripture dropped into my heart from God and it was NOT what I expected to hear. I expected something like, “You wicked sinner, depart from me and go straight to fire!” LOL. Of course, that is what I thought I deserved but instead His words floated down upon my spirit like big flakes of white snow falling on a quiet and dirty world, covering it in a beautiful clean blanket.
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39
It didn’t stop there, and I began to weep as His words washed over me with grace, a love so undeserved, the heart of a loving father saying he will protect me and all I had to do was surrender EVERYTHING, no matter the cost! I felt prompted to write out everything in a confession to God. I then wrote out my story as if I were to follow-through with the bad decisions I was tempted to make and go to the end of those decisions. As I brought the story to its inevitable conclusions, my heart raced with fear. I felt as if I were driving as fast as I could only to stop just before I saw the bridge was out. I began to weep again as I felt enveloped by God’s loving discipline and correction and the ultimate protection of a truly caring father.
I then sensed the Lord say, “Now I want you to write out what I think about you.” As I sat there, my hand began to write numerous pages of scriptures I had read but did not remember and my hand wrote things I hadn’t even been thinking! The Holy Spirit was pouring over me, confirming my true identity, how I was created for love and for his purposes. He showed me how I was not my own and I was bought with a price! To God, I was far too valuable to lose. He would not allow the enemy to destroy that for which he had intended divine purpose. It was truly a miraculous and life-transforming conversation with God.
After he poured his love over me, a question from God dropped into my heart: “If you lost everything, what would you want back?” Sadly, this was the first time I had ever truly contemplated what my most valued non-material possessions were. I was being confronted with the fact that I took so much for granted. It was not hard for me, in that moment, to identify what matters most after having contemplated the end of my story, had I followed sin. I had just experienced God’s unconditional, everlasting, enduring and undying love for me!
I knew that if I lost everything, no matter what and no matter how hard it was, I would always:
1. Go back to Jesus! I would definitely want my relationship with Jesus to be right and close.
2. I would want my relationship with my husband, Bill, to be filled with joy. I would not just want to be together, I would want to be fully in love and engaged in one another’s lives and cheering each one’s dreams on to be fulfilled. I would want to have a close relationship with our three girls and to have their respect as a good example of loving wife and mother.
3. I would want to have godly influence. I would want to have moral authority to speak into the lives of others from a Biblical foundation and would not want anything to stand between me and being able to represent Christ in a way that is both pleasing and brings glory to Him.
From this point forward it was clear for me to protect what was most important.
I stop in its tracks every single thought that threatens any one of the above three values. If I “smell smoke” I run to my relationship with Jesus and my family to check my heart and see if it will harm my influence. It gives me the courage to stand vigilant and guard!
So, there it is! Above All Else is a ministry to encourage LEADERS, YOU, to fulfill your God-given purpose in all aspects of life! This begins with your THOUGHT LIFE. What you think leads to what you say. Your WORDS are so important and should reflect a God-fearing leader. The environment where you work, your family, and your friends should be drawn to honor God by the words you say! You set the tone where you are. You do not have to reflect your environment, no matter how toxic it might be. Reflect Jesus. And lastly your words lead to your ACTIONS.
Let’s do this together! A REVOLUTION of leaders living out our GOD-GIVEN PURPOSE IN ALL ASPECTS OF OUR LIFE!
So excited to hear from you and begin this conversation on godly leadership! What do you think? Have you thought about this before: IF YOU LOST EVERYTHING, WHAT WOULD YOU WANT BACK?
IF YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT IS MOST VALUABLE TO YOU, YOU WON’T PROTECT IT!
“ABOVE ALL ELSE, guard your heart for EVERYTHING YOU DO flows from it!”
Thank you so much for joining me on this journey and please share it with all of your friends and family members. Remember, everyone influences another in some way. This is for you…a person through whom God is touching the lives of others! Together let’s encourage one another toward what matters most.